It's the third day we returned from NZ. (returned on 24th Dec late afternoon). For the last two days, I stayed with her. Christmas mah. should be spent together. I wanted it to be so, although there are the usual tons to do after a two-week holiday - laundry in particular.

As bb said in her post, we shot tons of pictures. More than 2800 in all. Got a few videos with my camera too. We are both writing up about our trip so they will be posted later. Just be patient, and more patience for my bit please, as bb has already started writing and sorting photos, and she is the efficent one. Always!

I said I'll visit my brother and his family today. But my tummy hasn't been too good. no pain, but just uncomfortable. may bve I had too uch for hte last 2 weeks. that's an excuse in a way. I got up a bit later today, 7:30am. Got up, started washing machine for my laundry, and went back to bed hoping to sleep a bit more but couldn't. So I got up and caught up the tv program while I was away. Done that by 4:30pm. Yes, in other words, I spent today in front of a tv today. What really changed my mind was my state of mind. I was emotional. The tv program was about a solicitors' firm, not really one of those what bb calls emotionally-manipulating programs. but from time to time, I couldn't help sobbing away. I don't know if I'm fraid of tomorrow (because I need to return to work) or I simply miss my sis which I've been doing so for the last week. When I attended mass on Sunday morning, I was listening to what Father had to say to us, but at one stage, tears filled my eyes and I was sniffing. I wanted to run to the washroom to cry. I missed my sis so much! the memory of going to masses with her in Christmas was flooding in my head. I had to really control myself. We still have to sing the hymes.

Then came the part where we wished everyone "Peace be with you." I kept a low key, as I have always done in Sunday church. I smiled and still wished people peace as everyone does. But the smile on my face must be odd.

Yesterday, I went to the church's x'mas party. I don't know that many people, and am still struggling to memorise my Sunday church group. I kept smiling. In fact, I was starting to feel tired because of jet lag. It went well. The performance by the kids who attend Sunday church was really good. It was very sweet. But somehow, I didn't feel part of them. I didn't feel I fit in wel.. May be that's because I still don't know them well. It takes time. May be I'll feel more comfortable later.

It's the third day we returned from NZ. (returned on 24th Dec late afternoon). For the last two days, I stayed with her. Christmas mah. should be spent together. I wanted it to be so, although there are the usual tons to do after a two-week holiday - laundry in particular.

As bb said in her post, we shot tons of pictures. More than 2800 in all. Got a few videos with my camera too. We are both writing up about our trip so they will be posted later. Just be patient, and more patience for my bit please, as bb has already started writing and sorting photos, and she is the efficent one. Always!

I said I'll visit my brother and his family today. But my tummy hasn't been too good. no pain, but just uncomfortable. may bve I had too uch for hte last 2 weeks. that's an excuse in a way. I got up a bit later today, 7:30am. Got up, started washing machine for my laundry, and went back to bed hoping to sleep a bit more but couldn't. So I got up and caught up the tv program while I was away. Done that by 4:30pm. Yes, in other words, I spent today in front of a tv today. What really changed my mind was my state of mind. I was emotional. The tv program was about a solicitors' firm, not really one of those what bb calls emotionally-manipulating programs. but from time to time, I couldn't help sobbing away. I don't know if I'm fraid of tomorrow (because I need to return to work) or I simply miss my sis which I've been doing so for the last week. When I attended mass on Sunday morning, I was listening to what Father had to say to us, but at one stage, tears filled my eyes and I was sniffing. I wanted to run to the washroom to cry. I missed my sis so much! the memory of going to masses with her in Christmas was flooding in my head. I had to really control myself. We still have to sing the hymes.

Then came the part where we wished everyone "Peace be with you." I kept a low key, as I have always done in Sunday church. I smiled and still wished people peace as everyone does. But the smile on my face must be odd.

Yesterday, I went to the church's x'mas party. I don't know that many people, and am still struggling to memorise my Sunday church group. I kept smiling. In fact, I was starting to feel tired because of jet lag. It went well. The performance by the kids who attend Sunday church was really good. It was very sweet. But somehow, I didn't feel part of them. I didn't feel I fit in wel.. May be that's because I still don't know them well. It takes time. May be I'll feel more comfortable later.