Took a sick leave today. No, I'm not ill. Just felt very drained and needed a day's rest. I struggled hard whether I should take leave or not. The physical side of me was enthusiastic as I really some rest. That would help my emotions too. But the other side of me thought it's wrong, and that I'll be lying, which is forbidden by God. Eventually, I gave in and left messages with the office saying I won't be there today. I said to myself that I'll use today to seriously read and learn more about Christianity and God's word.

The result is yes, I did some of that. And reflected upon those words. What I wanted to do but didn't do was to do some revision before my baptism.

I looked up websites of the Churches and read a bit more about them. I learnt that the Church near where I live offers masses at 7:15am on weekdays. I wanted to go, to strengthen my faith and my confidence to be a good Christian, but even now, the flesh is weak. I'm already doubting if I'd get up at that time, and if I go to the office after that, I'll be early and what do I do then, and so on. Many excuses.

I promise myself this: I'll go on the day after. I'll start some revision now before going to bed. I'm free tomorrow lunch and I'll go to CC chapel. I'll also see if I can fit in a yoga class tomorrow after work. That's my plan.