It's been a while; the telecon took place on 27 Dec morning. Got to be patient and have faith in Him - that He would only give the best to me ! I may not get it, and that too would be for my own good.

In the interim, I have had the chance of tossing around the ideas of going in-house or stay with private practice. I have decided to go in-house. Not because of what happened yesterday - that my boss tried to play smart - eg the word "however" in paragraph 11 of the draft should be deleted as it's not necessary and it's grammatically wrong. Well, that word was necessary, but I didn't want to argue anymore and just wanted the draft to be finalised and we could issue it. In any event, how can that be "grammatically wrong" ??! It's not an impulsive decision. I have been praying for an indication from Him and in the last few days, I think I got the message - that I should go in-house. In fact, I have got several messages:

1. Dad has always encouraged us to work hard to develop our careers. When I spoke to him a few days ago, he said life is short; what can you do with more $$ ? What's their value? He said he didn't want me to wear myself out.

2. Rev. Father asked after my dad after bible class on Wednesday just passed (17th). He gave several good advice, particularly that I should have a chat with mum and dad separately to see how they are getting on.

3. Before start of bible class on 17th, I heard of the arrangement after the students are baptised in April this year. The new class will start on 18 April and naturally I'm one of the tutors. The difference is for the 1st 10 weeks or so, there would just be me and one other tutor; the other 4 would be on the "bridging class", taking care of the newly baptised. That means I have to be there and on time, and will speak on alternate weeks. Immediately I asked myself if I can give that sort of commitment, but then I think if that's what He wants me to do, He will make sure I can do it.

4. At 101 gathering last night, I met one of the tutors from bible class. She went up to me and said there's something she wanted to tell me for a long time but kept forgetting to do so. She said she thought my presentation (which was 3 weeks ago) was very good. She said I have a good voice. She didn't mean my presentation was dry but only thought if I could include some sharing in it, it would be easier for the studients to understand the messages I was putting across. I am grateful for her encouragement and felt it's another message.

5. The daily scripture on Tuesday (16th) reminds me that God is just. He honours all His promises. A good example is His promise to Abraham that he was blessed and would have many decendants. We need to be patient (Letter to the Hebrews 6:10-20)

So Faith and Patience are what I need now.